Eye on the Prize

The more I think of it the more astounded I am that my shrink at the VA tried to use the doctrines of my religion to convince me not to commit suicide. What possible argument could be invoked to persuade a gay veteran to follow some religious doctrine? I have to keep my religion at arm's length of my spiritual beliefs. The desire to be solely in the company of God without the distractions of earthly existence reinforces my wish to stop living. I just cannot believe that God rejects me too.